I was going to write somthing
I was going to write something about how the ask box is never used anymore, and maybe draw comparisons to changes and a lost language, and probably throw in some sort of nostalgia. but then I realised that I would only be doing this in some vain attempt to receive. And now i’m thinking about how I never put anything here, or on any social media site, or anywhere on the internet really. I do this because I understand that the only reason any of it is ever done is to have someone respond, and not in any meaningful way, not in any response, but just in a click. I want to be liberated from this, I want to remove the rush of seeing that some one took an immense amount of time out of their day to click something. I want to write without the nerves of wondering if or how many clicks. I don’t want the buzz or feeling of satisfaction that comes with social media, its different than the feeling of making someone smile or laugh. its more surging, needy, craving, sharp. It makes you edit and change yourself for others in ways that you would not do in any other situation.
I realise as well that I don’t think about the implications of when I click that button.